Papa

As tomorrow approaches and I think about what February 11th will always mean to me, I can't help but get sad of course, and even a bit upset. Three years ago (tomorrow) I lost my dad. No idea how he passed other than the Lord knew it was His time so He took my dad. I miss him like crazy and can't help but to think about all of the wonderful and not so wonderful things he has missed out on and will miss out on. I am upset about the fact that Gwen will not get to meet her Papa. She would have been his little angel, I just know it. I think about how amazing he was with my niece and nephews and can't help but to be sad and upset at the fact that Gwendolyn will not get to experience that. There is nothing I can do to change it, I will just tell her about Papa and hope that she can develop a love for him even though she will never get to receive on of his gigantic bear hugs that always made you feel so comfortable. I love my daddy and I miss him. Even though things were rough quite a bit, no one will ever replace my daddy or Papa to my Gwenny.

Gwendolyn is doing great. We took her to her 4 month doctors appointment on Tuesday and the doctor just kept raving about how perfect she is and how great of a job we are doing! That made me so happy to hear! And apparently every one at the doctors office couldn't stop talking about her eyes. Dr. Amy is obsessed with her hair though! She is 26 inches (95th percentile), 14lbs 13.8 oz (70th percentile) and her head is in the 45th percentile! I was excited that her head grew a bit! I have been noticing signs that she was teething and Dr Amy confirmed that. Well last night was our first experience with her being painful with the teething. She couldn't get comfortable for quite a while and then woke up quite a few times during the night. She got through it and so did I, but I am sure there is much more of that fun to come! Gwen loves to sit up (supported of course) and loves to stand. She gets so excited when she's standing up, it is so darn cute! She doesn't like to lay down as much anymore, she loves to be up seeing the world. She loves to be outside and see all the trees and feel the nice fresh air. When she gets fussy, we usually go for a walk outside to calm her down. Still no luck with the bottle, I gave up for a while because I figured there was no point. But I will begin to try again soon, Dr's orders! However, because of Gwen's eating schedule and Matt's work schedule, there is no one else to offer her the bottle but me, so we will see how it work out.

Here is a picture of my daddy walking me down the aisle:

I haven't uploaded any recent pictures of Gwen, but I will get some up soon.