Welcome to our world!

What an amazing ride this has been for us. Matt and I have been married for 5 years on May 7th. We have an amazing relationship and I can honestly say that I have the best husband ever!!!

Here is a brief update on how we got to this point:

Matt and I decided that in December of 2008 we were going to start trying for a baby. I was so excited! I used to ask him all the time if we could start trying, and of course the answer was "no" which was a good thing looking back on the different situations that we endured. For the first few months I would get excited and take a pregnancy test each month, and each month the same result: negative! As the months went on I got very discouraged and began to think there was something wrong with me. So, like any sane woman, I decided to take matters into my own hands! I began taking my basil body temperatures each morning and tracking my cycles to see if everything was normal. Come to find out, things were a little off. So, I went to my doctors and she ran a few tests and found something wrong. Then, she told me that I had to go to a fertility specialist. WHAT?!?! My thought was that I was 25 years old, how could anything be wrong with me? So, I guess I should go to the specialist and see what he had to say. I called and made my appointment. In the mean time, Matt and I went on a dream vacation to Hawaii. What an amazing piece of paradise to go to get my mind off of all of the craziness.

When we came back we went to my appointment. Thank the Lord for Matt, he came to every single appointment with me (he knew mentally I could not do this on my own). Needless to say, I had to go through a whole bunch of testing and in the end was put on some medication. Again, this is how I know I am married to the most amazing man in the world! The medication made me CRAZY! I had multiple personalities, one second I was trying to be lovey, they next I would yell at him and seem like I hated him. Boy, am I glad I don't have to take those medications any longer!

As soon as I put was on this medication I was so excited. I thought I would get pregnant the first month. All I could think about at any moment of the day was being pregnant. The thought of being pregnant consumed my every thought and action from the time we started to try. I wanted it when I was ready and I wasn't going to allow anything to get in my way. I was on the medication for 3 months.

My testimony part (in short) of this trial: Like I just said my entire life was consumed with the thought of being pregnant. It wasn't what was in God's plan, it was what was in my plan, and obviously God was not a fan of that! I would say the right words all the time to any one who asked... I always said "it's in God's hands not mine." But I didn't truly believe that or live that. Like I said I wanted it and wasn't going to let anything stand in my way. It wasn't until December of 2009 (a full year after beginning to try to conceive) that I finally lifted my eyes to the Lord and actually asked Him to take control of the situation and let me truly let go. I finally had peace about the situation for the first time in a whole year. I can't even express to you the weight that was lifted from my shoulders and how different I viewed everything from that point forward. And what do you know, that very month God blessed us with me becoming pregnant. He was waiting for me to realize that I am not in control of my life and that He is in complete control. It was kind of like He said "Finally! Thank you for trusting me and believing I am in control. Here is a blessing for you."

It is amazing that this baby whom I haven't even met yet has been able to be used as such an amazing witnessing tool to my unbelieving friends. God is awesome! It is so great to see Him work in so many different ways!